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May 2016

Life

Space for Dreaming

We all have passions, loves, gifts, talents and dreams. Whether or not we realize it, I really believe they are there, deep inside our hearts and souls waiting to be nurtured.

Among the top of the list of things I love for me are writing, singing, songwriting, and creating. I love to make music with my husband and alone, and create stories that are meant to be shared. I absolutely love crafting posts for this blog and sharing thoughts with whoever wants to read.

I also have a day job with long hours, like many people do, and find it harder than one would expect to make room in my life for the things that I love.

There was a time, a few years ago, when I completely stopped allowing space for dreaming and creativity in my life. I was knee deep in my eating disorder, and allowed it to take up all the extra energy I had inside of me. I was home for the summer from college, and my mom noticed that I stopped singing all around the house. I was so exhausted and drained from my issues that I had nothing left to give.

It took a long time and lots of therapy to find my way out of that place, but the premise is this: when you allow things to occupy the space in your heart reserved for dreams, you cheat yourself of a life filled with joy. Andrew and I have talked about this and have decided to “not be defined by our day jobs”, as we call it. We want to be good stewards of our blessings and be excellent in the jobs we spend our time at for 9 hours every day, but we also want to be good stewards of the dreams and gifts God has woven into our hearts. 

In my devotional today, it said instead of being intimidated by that “thing” you’ve always wanted to do, to start where you are. Wherever that is, a phone call, a day away to dream (love that), or an hour of writing, you can always just start where you are. This spoke volumes to me as I thought about all the little things I can be doing, like writing this little blog, to nurture that space in my heart full of dreams. Everyone has one! If you don’t know where yours is, I know a little soul searching will reveal it to you. Where does your mind wander when you have the time? What do you find yourself wanting to do more of in your free time?

As we all have dreams and passions and aspirations, we also all have fears trying to work against us. For a long time, I avoided showing anyone my songs or writing pieces because I felt I didn’t have a shot and there was no point. I’m learning that it doesn’t really matter what kind of a “shot” you have. If you love your work, and are diligent and teachable and genuine in it, that will show through. That speaks volumes. If it’s something that you love so much, “success” defined by others really becomes just a bonus. I am only 24 years old and I know my passions and aspirations will grow and change over the course of my life. I don’t really know what I will end up doing “professionally” as a day job throughout the remainder of my life, but I do know that I don’t have to be defined by whatever that is. I can always do these things that I love, even if I don’t make money at them, because they ignite my heart and mind and soul and carry me on.

I love this quote by Bob Goff in his book Love Does. He is an amazing author, speaker and philanthropist but he also used to be a lawyer:

“Some time ago I stopped thinking about being a lawyer as a career. Instead, I think of it as just a day job. Thinking about work as a day job has made a big difference in the way I approach what I do. It’s also helped me not to confuse who I am with what I do. I spend a great deal of time working for kids in Uganda and India and chasing bad guys who hurt them. I started a nonprofit a number of years ago and now Sweet Maria and I think about my day job as a great way to fund the things we’re doing. Now when I put on a suit and tie or jump on a plane to go take a deposition, we call it “fund-raising.” 

Dream on, lovelies. Leave a comment down below with what you’re dreaming up! I would love to hear about it!

Happy Sunday 🙂

-Caitlin